I’m not perfect and I don’t want to be. However, I can’t help but think that I must be doing something wrong. Where are all the young guys to share this life you created with me ? I have changed in so many ways, yet my surroundings haven’t. I just want you to help guide me in the direction I should be going. Cause I’m lost, and your the only one who can make me see clearly my path. I don’t want to cry, so I hold back. I don’t want to sit here and regret things I have done or wish I would have done things. My past relationships were not bad, but there has to be a reason I’m here today without specific people in my life. I gave up my boyfriend and my best friend in the course of a year. I know you have a plan, I just want a clue as to where my life is going. You put two amazing people in my life, who I love unconditionally , and then suddenly they are no longer there. I just want help. Maybe not the full answer but just some type of guide. Please give me that.